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Last week I watched the re-run of Inuyasha anime in my country and a bit feeling nostalgia, and I remembered haven't finishing reading the manga since it came late in my country and because Inuyasha story having kind of bitter memory of my ex😊.
Inuyasha series accompanied my childhood until my college days, I remember watching it before go to classes or exams.
Since I always moved, I always hang out with new peoples, but Inuyasha is always being a part that connecting us (of course it's not the only one).💞💞

I finish reading the manga and to conclude it with Shakespeare's Othello quote :

O, beware, my lord, of jealousy;
It is the green-eyed monster which doth mock
The meat it feeds on; that cuckold lives in bliss
Who, certain of his fate, loves not his wronger;
But, O, what damned minutes tells he o'er
Who dotes, yet doubts, suspects, yet strongly loves!






I really think Naraku is green eyed monsters who is being controlled by his feeling to Kikyo, and his jealousy to Inuyasha.
I know manga being injustice toward Kikyo, since we saw her through Kagome eyes, who really stuck in first image of Kikyo. But still it's really hard to see her not as pitiful person.
And Kagome is really strong person in heart well maybe due her raised in modern era.
The main question I have for long time ago is "are Inuyasha is really love Kikyo?"
I don't think He love Kikyo more than Kagome, so does Kikyo. The two of the only looking up for way escaped their suffocate life. Well maybe this kind of feeling is also love😽😽.

A~ah maybe I need to re-watch the anime so maybe I can sympathize with Kikyo.
🤣🤣🤣

 I hope I would never experience this day ever again!!!
But, to think experienced it once is good enough!.
XDDD

Those day I got invited to Police station for questioning about fraud case that my friend accused by customer.
I got questioned for 3 hours. Because, we already prepared before so it's not really terrible experience, and maybe because I'm not the suspect they are not really harsh asking the question.

Most of  the question is more about my job description, what I'm usually do, How I do it. and to the question about the case I answer it mostly with "I don't know!" well I don't really pay attention with my friend customer since I have service mine, except there is much ruckuss.

The case happened 1 month before He making complain, so we don't remember anything about it.


and now after 3 months?? 4 months He withdrawing the case which really make us relief   .

 Since it's necessary to having post to join some community, so why not take this opportunity to write something!!! :))

What to write?
What should I write?
When I think about it, it's will be full of complain about my life ne~ (Who cares?!)
Well, since it's my journal then it would be okay to write rambling about anything, since nobody will read it excepting my self.

But as first post, I think to write something what led this account and my first entry.
My solely reason is How much I adore "Sakurai Sho-san".

Arashi took my attention at 2016, it's not like it's first time I heard about Arashi, I just don't really like to watching Idol. I watching if their act in drama but just as it. never really look their activity as Idol. And join arama makes you know bit and pieces about Idol right~

So in review what happened in 2016 of my life is :
1. My new boss is totally tyrant!!!
2. Adding to it all around me seems foes, everyone will betraying you.
3. Someone I thought will be my husband choosing other woman.
4. My family is kind of broken.
5. Nobody I can talk to.
In first time of being in adulthood I thought of suicide. LOL!! 
I think there is nothing good in life anymore. I'm losing sight of future.

Thinking like that I running away from the real life, to non real life. and I stumbled at vs Arashi in youtube. A year before it I watching vs Yamadaigoldenbomber, even though without english sub I found in entertaining. So I watching all youtube have offer to me. at that time there's so many vs Arashi with subbed in youtube. when watching it I laugh to my heart content, since certain someone always laugh out loud. :P
I even fake sick a day just to watching vs arashi all day!! :))))

Knowing Arashi doesn't mean I know their name and faces, except for Matsujun. (I always watching his drama out of the other four). ^^v.
So I always made mistake between Sakurai-san and Nino. Thanks to Ito (Heaven's voice) who seems to rely in Sakurai-san I know who is who. XDD. the vs Arashi I watched is quite old episodes so I really think Sakurai-san is the Host of vs Arashi, since when the other 4 sit down He is the only one who always stand up all the show, not to mention Sakurai-san is not quite good at game. XDD
Watched his failed and how he reacted really made me at easy. For me He is Joker! So when I watched Bet the Arashi I bit shocked to see His Ace. But to think about it Yes He is an Ace!!!

At episodes of junior high competition, when He said to the team who topple the tower, "It happened to me every weeks, don't cry over it", My interpretation about it is "it's okay, it's not happened for you but to you, just enjoy the game." I really can connect it to everything what happened in my life.
and I forgot which episode He said it but until now I really keeping close in my mind (up until I still searching for those episode, but I still can't find it)
"we can only praying so we can win at this one, but praying to GOD to make us win, is unfair, because it's mean we deny the other team hard work (they really deserve to win), So we have to doing our best too" 

I stunning at that!!! I just coming back from being representative of my office at competition, I praying to GOD to win and I practising so hard but in the end I lose. XD I prayed to GOD to forgave me to asking something bad happen to others.

It's not like magic all my depression is vanish, but when I watching him I feel better.